The Good, The Bad and The Ugly of me living with Diabetes 2
Hi, I'm Kelly and the team at The Diabetes Kitchen has asked me to share my journey of living with T2. Here's how it started for me. :)
The past is the past, however it leaves its mark on the present and the future, and I’ll start with a brief background prior to being diagnosed with Diabetes. Most of my adult life I was a size 12/13, active and happy with who I was. Unfortunately several traumatic episodes in my life, which toppled like dominos I escalated into a tumble downwards.
Over a period of 2 years I gained a lot of weight to size 18, lack of energy (however still playing basketball), I was eating and drinking to deal with the issues that were darkening my life at this time. It was like falling into a deep hole and trying to find a way out. Due to two traumatic experiences one on top of the other during this period I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, it took a long time to claw my way back out of that dark deep hole.
I remember after these episodes in my life had physically ended, I needed to find ME… I decided to take up belly dancing and I’ll never forget going into the classroom and having to confront myself in a room full of mirrors… This was the jolt I needed to start changing my life, my weight fluctuated up and down, however I made decision to heal myself with the help of a good doctor, counsellor (at work) and determination.
Several years on whilst travelling overseas for 3 months and coming home to a completely different living arrangement. I lost about 20 kilos and was starting to feel like a new me. I was happier and living a healthier lifestyle so I was bewildered that a year or more after the weight loss and getting my life on track I started to get symptoms that would lead to me being diagnosed with Pre Diabetes. Honestly I was totally gutted, felt like I was sliding down that deep hole again, why now I was healthier, still a little overweight however I was a different woman.
After the various and unpleasant tests to confirm the diagnoses of Pre-Diabetes, I was dumbfounded and after many chats with my Doctor I decided I was going to do my best not to let this beat me. However being a chocoholic and loving food and drink I knew this wasn’t going to be easy.
During this period of my life, I did a lot of reading on Diabetes 2 and treatments, including alternative treatments. I remember meeting with a Diabetic Educator and I’ll never forget how destroyed I was, how negative this Educator was towards me and my illness. I recall leaving her office and breaking down in tears and blaming myself for allowing this disease to occur to me. This was a backward step which took me a while to recover, especially emotionally and mentally.
I found lots of negativity and blame towards me from some aspects of the medical profession during appointments and research, however on the other side of the coin I found Medical professionals who were open-minded. I found research that supported that diabetes can be triggered by weight, trauma and stress. I researched this because of the traumatic experiences I had lived with and my weight gain and loss and how this triggers my blood sugar levels.
I am still living with diabetes and over the coming months I will be writing about my good, bad and ugly moments. How I struggle, how I succeed, how important it is to have good support.
Hope you're all finding fun things to do at home whilst in isolation!